The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time

April 7th, 2012 by Laura Longley

My next door neighbors have two miniature greyhounds.  I’m sure they are very nice dogs, but they bark. Every time they go out into the backyard.  My computer is in the kitchen, which is at the back of the house, so I spend a lot of time there.  My bedroom is also at the back of the house.  You can see where I’m going with this.

A little over a month ago I finally got annoyed enough, after being woken up once again by the barking, to talk with my neighbor about this problem.  He and his wife are a nice young couple and have lived in the house for a couple of years.  I told him that the barking had become a problem, and he said they would figure something out.

The barking subsided for the most part, and after two weeks of not much barking I left a thank you card for the neighbors and dog treats for the dogs.  Goodwill.

Unfortunately, it didn’t last.  I’ve noticed over the past week that the barking is back to the level it was before we had the conversation, and twice I’ve been woken up by barking, most recently last night.

I obviously have to talk to them about it again.  I hate conflict.  Really, I do.  My pattern with conflict is usually that I avoid the discussion. I hope the problem will go away, or I try to tolerate it. I examine over and over whether my complaint or concern will be perceived as a valid one. If someone approaches me with a conflict, I usually accommodate them.

And when I just can’t stand whatever it is any longer, I explode. After all the avoiding, tolerating and accommodating, the pressure builds up and I get really angry.  Sometimes way out of proportion to whatever the issues is.  I would like to be more comfortable with approaching a conflict in the early stages before I’m ready to explode.

Last night after I was awoken by the barking for the second time this week. I laid in bed thinking about talking with my neighbor – again – about this problem.  I felt angry that I needed to talk to them again. Why couldn’t they have just kept doing whatever they had been doing for the past month?

I felt angry that they were so inconsiderate to allow their dog out at 11 o’clock at night.  It seems like common sense that when our houses are less than 10 feet apart, and the doggy door opens right next to my bedroom, that you would not let your dogs out that late.

I felt anxious about talking to them about the dogs barking again, even though I have a valid reason. I considered calling instead of going in person (kind of distancing).  I considered leaving a note (definitely distancing).  But I know that I need to speak to them in person.

It took me a while to go back to sleep.  Not because the dogs woke me up, but because I got upset about being woken up.  To begin with, I was angry that it was even an issue.  Then I slipped into worrying about talking with my neighbors about the problem.  After I went back to sleep I even had dreams about it.

This is silly!  It’s just a conversation with my neighbors, and even if they are unhappy about what I have to say the worst that could happen is that they will not make any changes in what they do with their dogs, and that they will be angry with me.

This last part, them being angry with me, is the core of my anxiety about conflict not just with the neighbors, but with anyone.  It is a very deep-seated fear for me; it feels emotionally unsafe for others to be angry at me – I will be abandoned, rejected or hurt in some other way.

I understand some of the reasons I have this fear, yet understanding why does not change those feelings.  I believe that the only thing that will change this fear is putting myself in situations where others may be angry with me, and dealing with the results.  This is part of being authentic and speaking my truth.

In many cases I will not be abandoned or rejected for approaching conflict with someone else.  In fact, they may not be angry at all.  In other cases my older experiences may be repeated where I am rejected because someone is angry at me. Intellectually I know that this does not make me wrong or bad, and I need practice and experience of detaching from others’ reactions. Truly knowing and accepting that their reaction has nothing to do with who I am as a person or whether I am a good or valuable human.

This is big practice for me.  But if I am truly committed to being authentic, then it is practice I must do.  I must say what is true for me and ask for what I need, even when I fear the other person’s reaction.  As long as I act with authenticity, love and compassion I can let others own and take responsibility for their own emotions.


9 Responses

  1. Pam Christmas says:

    As with almost all of your posts, I feel I could have written this … exactly, every stage is how I feel about dealing with anger. Please keep writing Laura.

  2. Pam Christmas says:

    As with almost all of your posts, I feel I could have written this … exactly, every stage is how I feel about dealing with anger. Please keep writing Laura.

    • I was thinking some more about this, Pam, and I think this is a common pattern for women. We are taught to be “nice” so we avoid conflict or try to accommodate the other person, then we end up not getting our own needs met. No wonder we explode!

  3. I’ve only recently gotten past this stage in my life and it feels good. Establishing boundaries for your life can be difficult especially when others around you are accustomed to a different behavior. Although I’m still anxious, I can finally say confronting someone about something that is right (at least right for me) has gotten easier but you are right when you say it takes practice. I’ve been practicing this for over two years now. God bless you!

  4. I’ve only recently gotten past this stage in my life and it feels good. Establishing boundaries for your life can be difficult especially when others around you are accustomed to a different behavior. Although I’m still anxious, I can finally say confronting someone about something that is right (at least right for me) has gotten easier but you are right when you say it takes practice. I’ve been practicing this for over two years now. God bless you!

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